Band camp [Saturday August 20th, 2005 2:04pm] [ mood | sore ] [ music | Miss you - Blink182 ] So this past week I've spent everyday from 9-9 at THS at band camp... which i must add is 10330590x harder than any of my other years. We've already have the 1st two numbers done and completed with work and only have drum solo and ending flag to learn.. its pretty amazing. Havent really gotten aggravated yet. Been pissed about my drill because im in East Bumble fuck... the whole damn time!! I dont even leave the 30.. i live on it.. i should camp a tent and start a fire.. and no one will ever notice because no one looks over there... PATHETIC lol!! oh well... Works hard as all hell.. fast.. but not even half as fast as ending flag is going to be. I havent been that bad on sabre... been getting ALOT better.. just cant catch shit under the leg or behind the back lol.. but im trying my hardest and hopefully they all see it! I look like a leopard on my arm because of all the bruises... it hurts like hell has hit me but soo worth it! I am sore as all hell though. My quads are killing me.. i cant bend down and everytime i try to hurry up and sorta run i wanna cry because i feel like a billion knives are jamming into my legs lol.. and to just think that we have a whole week left ... hmm this shall be interesting! But on a better note.. weighed myself and i lost 5 pounds and i got a couple shades darker.. SCOREEE!! Well last night went to Trevors after practice... my last and final goodbye until he had to go to the airport and go to Florida for college.. ughh all i did was cry. He is the nicest kid ever.. one of the few guys who actually treat me good and got my back 24/7. Not a day went by this summer really without hanging out with him.. hes grown to be my brother.. ughh im gonna miss him Very emotional night lol i must say.. probably because i was physically exhausted but because I'm in love with the kid.. Had to be home by midnight.. soo we hugged for like 3 hours straight... had our last kiss and bon voyage.. 117 days till i get to see my rugrat hehe!! But now i have to go say goodbye to Scott.. unfortuantly hes not going to college.. hes going into the army.. ughh i cant cry anymore... But for now i will have to say goodbye... i am not one to say goodbye.. it takes forever =( star

Last day of summer [Sunday August 14th, 2005 11:24pm] Well offically tomorrow is my last day of summer because then i have o-so-beautiful band camp.. but no complaints because this weekend just made up for it.. just say that i had the time of my life. Night started off horrible.. i must say. Scott once again tried to make plans so Dave S, Trevor, Brianna and I and some chick... waited at a damn Pilot for an hour or so waiting for them to go to a party in Milford but damn fuck up Scott got the date wrong lol. So we just took the beer and went over Trevors.. which i didnt complain about at all. Brianna went home around 1 and i just stayed with Trevor, Scott, Matt R. Dustin, Jose and Dave. Just chilled all night drinking but Trev had to be up early for church and Dave had to go to School soo we left Trevs around 3. Matt picked up Talia and Dana and we went swimming in Canoe Brooke.. totally was paranoid about cops.. which we thought once came soo we just wasted 6 beers by shoving them under the water and swimming to under the dock... not only were we worried about getting charged for trespassing.. but we had illegal drinking and fucken nakedness everywhere!! False alarm tho.. it was just more teens coming to light up joints and crap... pretty funny.. but we were all pissed that we wasted some beers lol. Left around 5... then Talia and Dana had to sober up because they were gonna fall off their ass trying to get back into their window lol...so  we went to booth hill school to just chill. Ofcourse i had to piss soo bad... =) Just chilled and talked.. pretty chill. Then dropped them off then Matt Dustin Scott and I all slept over Dustins. Scott had to be up for work at 8 and it was already 6, soo he was out like a light... and us 3 just chilled out in the tent outside fucked as fuck.... i love summer and who all that read this and think "your dumb" "your to young" and blah blah.. it was the last hoorah for summer.. now im gonna be doing something productive that i love the most in my life.. guard.. and thats all that madders.. soo screw you :-P But yah now its midnight.. and i just woke up because i didnt get home from Dustins at 2.. because we had to get our ass out of their to 1) clean up our mess.. 2) get scott to work ... 3) to get my ass out of their lol... soo we just went out to breakfast.. mmm Chocolate Chip Pancakes!! hehe.. yah that was my weekend.. and it kicked ass and screw you who think different :-P I love my friends.. and you should too lol!! rock ( 1 ) star

nicee [Thursday August 11th, 2005 11:53pm] Practice.. where do I begin? Was hell!! Dance just keeps getting harder and harder and I'm about to blow.. but I did finally get the barrel turn at the end and the terjate into a split.. major points for me lol!! But on better better better news.... ALISON IS BACK IN GUARD!! I talked to John for her and shes back.. get excited... because i sure am! And then.. im bringing Courtney partying with Brianna and I tomorrow.. this shall be fun!! Score!!! My life cant get any better!! star

poo on all yall [Wednesday August 10th, 2005 4:28pm] Screw everyone who compares My best friend and I because were two exact opposites and we love it... Courtney Costello, I love you with my whole heart and nothing can every change that Were like peas and carrots =) star

practice [Tuesday August 9th, 2005 9:04pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | Best of you- Foo Fighter ] yah well i sorta wanted to end this damn journal but i figured heyy its just something to do... and it is.. good place to scream in thoughts! Practice.. wasnt at all how i wanted it to do. Im trying not to get frusterated at all but 2night when i had freshmen after freshmen correct me i started blowing up. Im like shut up.. you've been spinning for like a month. Then people have to fucken compare me to Courtney.. because you know its not like were in competition enough as it is. People are like... how can you be best friends with some one like her.. shes gorgeous and amazing at everything and bladiblaaaaa... Im like shut the fuck up... its people like you who make me spaze on her and not wanna be around her. I had a good convo with Chels and Kayla today... realized why Courtney and I have no been spending anytime together this whole summer.. its because were not into any of the same shit. She doesnt like going to parties and getting trashed and hooking up with guys because supposingly shes in love with her hunni bee (dont mind me as i puke) and she hates smoking... ehh whatever im having fun Sabre for the 10 minutes we did it went really good... finally got blades.. thank god Got like 1 week of summer exactly left until dreaded band camp and i swear its gonna be the best week because i  dont care what anyone thinks... Ehh i hate complaining.. why i do it i dont know... im tired.. maybe thats it Soo goodnight star

wut a night [Thursday August 4th, 2005 2:27pm] Okay soo this has been the 15th day in a row that Brianna and I have not been sober.. which i must admit is pretty sweet but last night i regret getting drunk Went to a party with Dave Trevor and Dustin last night...Jon Dawson.. Scott.. Jess..and some other ppl we knew were there. Ofcourse me.. drunk after ONE beer.. was being stupid  5 minutes into the party. Played alot of games of beer pong and got really sick Almost broke my arm.. tried to attempt to walk down stairs because i went upstairs to have a smoke with Zach and Scott and Lenny and get another beer and the 1st step i missed and fell.. elbow right into a concret pole.. my god did it hurt but i didnt feel it thank god. Met a pretty hot kid Lenny. but wont talk about any of that stuff. Dave and i hung out for a while too.. fun times No drama last night thank god. Mike wouldnt stop calling me soo Dustin and Trevor were pissing him off.. greatness! Im gonna take a few days off from partying.. due to the fact that im gonna get ass raped by my mom cuz i got home at 2 yesterday morning drunk as fuck... luckily i have guard 2night soo i wont go out afterwards than Friday.. to another party in Easton Sweet ass Summer PS. Brianna or Dave get my Lennys number!!! star

::fat white ghettos falling out of cars:: [Monday August 1st, 2005 12:32am] [ mood | energetic ] [ music | Only imagine ] Its almost 1 in the morning and i just got home from another lovley night with Brianna. Got a call at like 10 from Scott and Dustin asking if we wanna go to stratford to chill with some of their boys and we did. Went to Stratford beach and did the whole fast and the furious thing where everyone looks at eachothers cars. Some pretty chill people. Ofcourse all the whites with their honda civics and shit lol... love ghetto white people.. i made a whole new group of friends!! laughed my ass off today.. Brianna and all of us where in a circle and then a group of boys r like speeding around the parking lot and jamming on their breaks and all of a sudden your hear the biggest *thud* in the world... fucken Lou jumped out of the car because the driver ::in Lous words:: Fucken crazy yooo!! lol then went to Wooster to play some bball.. night time style lol! Chilled with Dustin Brianna and Jess Z. another lovley summer night!! saweeeeettt star

good night [Saturday July 30th, 2005 1:43pm] [ mood | drunk ] [ music | soo long and goodnight.. ] This is an apology entry for anyone that i talked to last night.. i was drunk and i'm sorry! Brianna.. u were there with me but chugging 8 beers to 2 doesnt really fit.. i was stupid and im sorry.. i love you and i promise ill be better And who else knows wut i did.. i remember talking to Amber but i dont think i said anything wrong... hmm i wonder!! Well no regrets... like our names   say Party Crashers -- right Bri? Soo whens the next party? PS.    --- Practice went soo good 2day! never had it better... got my 7 out and sorta got no moving underneath my tosses down.. saved my ass .. WOOT for staying on sabre line!!!! Hmm maybe it was good cuz i had a hang over? star

listen to your heart.... [Thursday July 28th, 2005 11:58pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Shark attack..... ] Soo i think ive spent a total of 10 hours at home this week. I have been nothing but out and about and i absolutley love it because Brianna and I are keeping ourselves busy bees! Wednesday went over Buffos house last night to see him because i havent hung out with him since before i left for Florida.. it was always a fun time.. full of laughs. Woke up with a hang over today tho.. i dont see how.. maybe its because i pass out after 1 screwdriver... yup well i had 2 beers that night.. woot! lol Sat around in a circle singing the kindergarden rhythms.. Tibo made up lyrics for Baby shark song.. never laughed harder Slept in till 4 ish today.. had the worst headache and stomachache... went to practice which was easy as all hell .. then went to Dave S. house for a party... which i must say was a drama fest but funny shit went down. Met some kewl people.. Brianna and them teamed up on me and made fun of me... always an enjoyment to them! But im to lazy to write about it.. just miss that crowd alot... Tomorrow going to Captains Cove with Bri, Deeds, Trevor, Dave, Dustin and 2 kids i met today John and Matt.. gonna be saweeeetttt!!! Well im tired... ive been out and about all week.. i need sleep! rock ( 1 ) star

oh boy [Tuesday July 26th, 2005 4:46pm] [ mood | irritated ] [ music | Only one - yellowcard ] I dont wanna go tonight... i cant go.. im uncapable of seeing anyone and taking one bit of critism My sister rose her voice to me today and i started bawling my eyes out... im so emotional and its not even that time to be... I wonder whats wrong? I didnt practice.. i have to leave in 15 minutes.. think i can squeeze in 15 minutes of practice... nah to lazy.. thats my problem, im just too lazy!! I have a bad feeling about tonight... Im gonna break down.. i know it... i dont want to.. but im going to Have a feeling im gonna fight with Court too... alot is building up with her and i think im gonna explode... star

What a day [Monday July 25th, 2005 9:37pm] [ mood | cynical ] [ music | Rumors - Lindsay Lohan ] Today was a bad day.. one of the worst that i had in a while. I fought with everyone who talked to me and i just cried.. very emotional day.. it sucked.. i hate crying Looked through the old photo albums today. Looked at Dream year and just cried. I was so close to everyone that year and now im barley hanging on by a thread with some of my friendships. I miss Lauren Coe, Shannon and Meg. I never thought i would say that but i do. Court and I are falling apart every second we talk. We cant agree on anything anymore and i learn about her life and what shes been doing through other people. I talk to other people and they tell me stuff that Courtney has never told me before.. some friendship I lost alot of weight since freshmen year.. made me smile for a hot second. I was huge and i hate how some people still thought i was gorgeous. My face looked like a pumpkin of how round it was. I must admit i am finally happy about my body. I was gonna walk to the beach today.. thats how desprate i was. I needed to go.. i do alot of thinking laying on the blanket there. And besides its the only time me and court hang out outside of guard. I dont wanna go to practice tomorrow. I still havent practiced and i have no desire to. I dont want to pick up my weapons and spin. It just doesnt faze me anymore.. i get no excitment from it. Im still shocked i even made sabre this year.. hope i dont have to be compared to Courtney all year. I need to go to a party with Brianna asap. Im in need of the atmosphere.. hopefully this one wont get busted and the person throwing the party wont get sent away to boarding school. Slept in all day today.. till 3 actually. Didnt want to get up and when i did i just wanted to go back to sleep. I dont even want to wake up anymore.. life is soo boring Its sad when you start counting down the days till school starts... i need school!!! On a positive note.. me and tori r growing closer.. sweet!! and i never loved Emily and Brianna more this week... they know how to make it a good time. But still score to getting close with tori!! Im done complaining.. peace rock ( 1 ) star

latley [Sunday July 24th, 2005 5:04pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | oh chariot - gavin degraw ] Brianna Em Tori Court Chels and i have been living at the beach the past few days. Im addicted i must say... always a good time with my chicas... expecially Tori.. glad were fixing shit up Got an urge of pissed offness when i got home.. i started yelling at my mom because i wish she had me earlier in life soo i can drive. All my fucken friends have their license or permit and im not even 16 yet. My best friend in the world has it now and what really holds our friendship 2gether is the car rides that we had to give eachother.. bullshit thats gone I really want school 2 start soo i can start the new me... thats really all i need right now No... what i need is the beach.. i wanna go back!! Wednesday hopefully star

practice [Thursday July 21st, 2005 10:58pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] [ music | here comes the sun.... ] i suck.. i offically lost my nitch on flag this season i dont know what im gonna do with myself.. i cant do damn tosses! when kayla and annie get them before me .. theres something seriously wrong boy..oh..boy im scared.. i really dont want this season to come.... i really dont think im gonna do good at all! ehh but im really not even gonna bother worrying about it because theres better stuff to worry about... like hmm... i dont know.. but there so it court got her license other day.. not gonna be seeing much of her nemore... ehhh whatever bri and i went over mikes yesterday... good times... got a bloody lip from bri cuz i got slapped in the face with a jock strap.. ouch! amber comes home in like a week and a half.... sweet!! oh and a double sweet... beach tomorrow wit emily!! rock ( 1 ) star

omfg [Sunday July 17th, 2005 10:37pm] [ mood | shocked ] Okay i have never been soo shocked in my life.. Amber i love you with all my heart but what the hell is this i hear that ur lighting up with Ally!! Shes 13! I am just shocked out of my mind! I have stopped Ally from doing everything by being her "mom" and i leave for a week and shes doing all this crap... wowzers! def think that is fucked up... wonder who else is doing it.. mike prop... stupid shithead waste of life! Well lighternote .. saw Wedding Crashers with Brianna... best movie ever!! almost pissed me pants... def every1 should see it! Payce star

Florida [Sunday July 17th, 2005 2:07pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Margaritaville ] Well just got home from Florida and i must say it kicked ass. Not gonna write about it all because theres way to much to say but it def. is number 1 on the best times of my life list! My best friend kicks major ass for putting up with my family lol... but good times.. good times! Pissed that i missed the guard sleepover.. i mean PISSED! I heard it was soo much fun.. and i miss Brianna Emily and Amber more than ne thing.. more than Phil and thats ALOT!! I cant wait till i see them on Tuesday.. well not Amber because shes leaving me for Colorado =( I got sun poisoning on my face.. it hurts soo bad! My lip is huge and my forehead is spotted.. i always come back diseases after a vacation lol! But i dont care.. im darkly tan lol! Dont wanna be home.. i wanna go back.. i love that weather.. who cares if it was 95 degrees every day.. it was sooo worth it.. and i really dont wanna see anyone except for my guard girls and phil but i dont wanna go to guard lol.... what else is new right? Hmmm im done.. just wanted to drop a line of hello and this journal is up and running again!!! SWEEETTTT!! Jess <3 star

12 hours [Friday July 8th, 2005 3:21pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Beach Boys- Wouldnt it be nice ] Literally 12 hours till i pick Courtney up.. get the limo and drive 2 hours to the airport... sweet sweet victory! BUT... Why does a hurricane have to come the week were there... great!!!! lol I hope Courtney has a good time.. thats the ONLY thing im worrying about... this trip is for her.. just to show her she means EVERYTHING to me!! and guess wut.. im not even bringing my fone.. its staying at the hotel room.. because this week and me and court time!! I smell the sweetness.. does anyone else?! FLORIDAAAAAAA star

woo hoo [Thursday July 7th, 2005 10:48am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | fall out boy ] I hate doctors who dont know what the hell they are doing! Well as all of you know.. i was diagnosed (sounds like imdying) with strep throat and put on medicine for like a week.. well i still feel like crap! So i went to get my physical today and it seems that i dont have strep but mono! and the damn doctor who said i had strep could have like killed me because the medicine she gave me could of had a reaction or something! So they put me on steroids lol. and i should be all better by i go to Florida sweetttt! Well good news i grew 1 1/2 inches and weight 5 pounds less.. but my doctor said im unhealthy because i dont eat right .. she said im a bad vegetarian lol. She asked me about my alcohol intake and i told her i drink alot and she gave me these packets on AAA lol! funny stuff... asked me about my sex life.. told her and i got free condoms... lol love doctors! Well i cant leave the house for a day because im contagious lol.. soo all my guard girl I LOVE YOU AND ILLMISS U! Off to Florida tomorrow baby! star

FAHHH [Wednesday July 6th, 2005 1:49pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Ohio is for lovers ] Im never gonna get well. Im gonna be sick for the rest of my life! My glands wont go down. There still the size of quarters.. i cant swallow ANYTHING... not even water without crying... and Im leaving for Florida in like 3 days. Luckily i have my physical tomorrow and i go to a doctor who knows what there doing and not a walk in doctor who just gives you medicine to get the whole out of there! Ive been taking pills... pills the size of my pinky finger to add... for like a week now and all its done is make me fall asleep! I just hope the doctor says i need my tonsils out so this never happens again and then maybe i can lose weight because i wont eat for like a week. Ugh i better be better for Flordia... i owe this to Courtney.. she deserves everything and more!! because shes my oober awesome best friend who does everything for me =) Practice yeserday wasnt that bad. I didnt really do anything because i helped Rebecca and Alexis the whole time. Rebecca totally knocked herself in the head.. mmm shes gonna be a Jessi lol.. had to go get her an ice pack and she just felt like a total idiot.. ahh gotta love her! Alexis is a hand full... always being a wise ass... hmmm i dont know about her lol. Shes just a hard one to teach... i dont know what were gonna do! Got in a fight with Phil after practice. Were taking a break now.. whoopie dooo. Ehh that wont last long.. hes stupid lol... but gotta love him! Not going to practice Thursday.. im just gonna rest and hope that after my physical i get medicine for this disease i have lol... Well im done writing.. i got nothing to say! Countdown: 2 days till Me and Court leave 2 days till Brianna comes home!! 10 Days till i can see Brianna =( star

Cirque [Saturday July 2nd, 2005 11:44pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | eherhgdwui ] Today was an amazing day! Ofcourse spent with the love of my life.. COURTNEY!! We went to see Cirque du Soleil... Vareki... kicked major ass. Was jaw dropped the whole time. I just love Courtney.. she always knows what im going to enjoy =) Im sick.. really sick. Got a 103 fever.. im freezing. Sore throat... swollen glands.. tummy ache.. im falling apart! Who the hell gets sick during the summer.. expecially when its 90 degress out. I better be okay before Florida...  i need to be. I need to make this the best vacation EVER for Courtney.. she soo deserves it!! Well im tired... so im gonna go to bed! AMBER AND EMILY ARE HOME!!! i missed themmm sooo much!!! Countdowns: 6 days till Court and I leave 7 days till Brianna comes home!! 14 Days till i can see here :-( rock ( 2 ) star

KITTY [Friday July 1st, 2005 7:39pm] Jessi got a kitty cat  today!! Her name is Molly... shes cute And FATTTTT <3 star

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